Billie Brand's Digital Portfolio
The Truth of Happiness
Throughout this project, we learned about the truth of happiness, and specifically how it can never be learned. Happiness is an ongoing goal for people living in our modern society right along with success and wealth. In order to gain happiness, you must first understand the difference between happiness and fleeting joy. We started with the Brave New World by Aldous Huxley that described a distorted society that relied on the use of material wealth and controlling sedatives for happiness. With that, we started to learn what couldn’t give happiness and began narrowing ideas down to what truly brought happiness.
PROJECT REFLECTION
Annotated Bibliography
Happiness Experiment
We started this project with viewing examples of how media and other elements of society influence identity, this included videos, books, movies, and sharing of stories. We reviewed our past experiences and wrote about how we have been socialized in different identity categories. Then we took our identity and made a mask to visually represent ourselves. We used critiques and reviews to edit and refine everything we did. We read several articles on socialization and different cases of the lacking of socialization in a person. We as people need interaction need connection, we need to belong.
Socialization and mask projecT
Mask
I can speak out and know that my ideas will be listened to and not just heard. I was running around at the exhibition trying to answer questions that my peers had zero knowledge on, people wanted to talk to me and learn more. I have learned through the exhibition and conversations that ignorance does not always mean that people don’t want to learn.
Working with new people that I don’t know or particularly like has been a challenging experience. I am a very stubborn person so I don’t like to compromise, I need to be in control of everything; I suppose that’s why I’m a driver. When helping the sexual orientation group, there were a lot of times when I wanted to send them to a corner and finish the entire project myself. I didn’t do that, but I learned that realistically I can’t handle every single thing and I don’t need to. I’ve learned to let go of the things I can’t control, I have learned to put my trust in other people to complete tasks.
Going through this project has been a completely eye-opening experience. I noticed myself standing at a gas station looking at air-fresheners and laughing to myself because it was so grossly gendered. One of the scented trees was literally ‘steel’ while the female-targeted one was something like a peach meadow. I notice myself doing that a lot now, looking at something and noticing how it could influence or enforce someone to do a certain thing or think a certain way; I don’t think anyone regardless of genitals has wanted to smell steel. In groups, I had a difficult time because I like to control everything, but I feel like the groups needed to be a lot more evened out so that drivers would be with amiable and analytical would have a chance to work with expressives. We also needed to have groups with at least one person having background knowledge on the subject. You can’t get a deep understanding of a complex subject in one unit. I also wish we got more time to work on our masks, I feel like there should have been specific days to work on the mask and others to work on the essay, so that they had equal amounts of time being refined.
When I found out we had to do an essay, I was terrified. Since middle school, I have always been afraid of sharing my thoughts, not to mention my experiences. I like to keep everything compartmentalized and hidden from view, what you can’t see can’t hurt you. Then I started writing my essay, all of my personal details and life stories came pouring out of my fingers like a dam had been broken. When I read back over it, I saw how much of my identity and experience had been influenced by society. I’m not good at sharing, so when it came to peer critiques when we had to share it out with a group of people, it was a very new and stressful experience for me. I had never written an essay about myself, it was always a report or fiction. Last year in 8th grade, we had a unit on the civil war and we had to write an essay on the book that we read, my hook stated, “Over six-hundred-twenty-thousand people died in the Civil War, which was, and still is, considered the deadliest war in American history”, but for the essay about my socialization, it said, “In society, we are heavily conditioned to obey even before we leave the womb. Our choices grow limited from being contained in this box that has already been predetermined for us by expectations.”. Putting aside the fact that they were about different subjects, the physical improvement from just last year is amazing. I have grown so much since coming to Animas and I want to keep exploring and growing.
When I had my mask and essay at the annual fundraiser, a woman came up and read through my entire essay, looked up at me, said “powerful,” then walked away. That was when I knew my words and idea could change minds. I have learned that my words and thoughts have value; even more so my actions. When I look back at the planning for our exhibition, a lot of the ideas and plans came from my group and I. Now,